Im sad.

Looking out of my lounge window, all the animals are out sunbathing and enjoying their fresh clean water, the washing is on the line drying quickly, and for once I don’t feel the need to wear a cardigan outside, if anything, clothing is becoming an issue, and the less of it the better in this heat!

I feel like I need to write something happy, do something positive, be active or at least do anything on such a beautiful day, but I cant, I feel sad.

Lack of energy, crappy nights sleep, and too many emotional issues later, I am tired and grumpy at even the thought of anything but curling up and watching Disney films and eating chocolate. I know this feeling won’t last long, and that life has its ups and downs, but this weekend has felt a little too rocky and I feel as though I have been through a boxing match and lost.

Now I am looking out of the window again and a small breeze is blowing through the house, the animals are peaceful and their is a sense of silence and calm, its comforting, yet I feel the need to still be doing something, why cant I seem to move off of the sofa and put my mind into something productive? Why am I even being so hard and cruel to myself thinking I have to be up doing something when actually maybe what I need more than anything is to be just relaxing, not trying to do anything, thinking.

Hurt gets to us all, and whether is big or small it can be paralysing, but tomorrow I know ill be slipping on my boots and me and my lab Missi will be out on our daily morning walkie and things will just seem alright.

Till then…

GiRL iN mUdDy BoOtS.